September 6, 2010
I sit here, listening to some bird or another. The morning is cool and perfectly clear, sun dappling the backyard through the still-full trees. My coffee, a present from cruising friends in Guatemala, is warm and full of flavors of cruising and friendship. The rest of the house is asleep. I miss cruising with a pang and an ache, even though I love my washing machine and large kitchen counters.
People constantly ask me what I will be doing this year. Depending on my mood, I have different answers. The flip one is, “Clipping coupons and scrubbing toilets.” Not that that would be bad, mind you, but I hate scrubbing things other than potatoes, and my scissor skills were found lacking even in kindergarten.
My next answer is the philosophical one. “I have been given the opportunity to redefine myself.” Okay, but since I never really knew what my definition of myself was beforehand, redefining is a little tricky.
The kids have requested that I continue to make all our bread. Consider it done. But I can’t do that all day long; we’d never fit back on Calypso.
So I think what I will do, besides searching endlessly for that money tree, is take the time to care well for my family, write a bunch, substitute teach, and see if anyone out there wants a personal chef.
Reentry has me alternately in tears and resigned. The freedom we have when we are aboard the boat, living the life of cruisers, is incomparable. Truly, cruising is what our lives were destined for, even with those little hiccups of missing friends and family. Then I see how happy the kids are back on land with their buddies and their SPACE and their stuff . . . but then they clamor, asking when we are heading off again. Apparently they think they could ditch it all and live in our snug home once again.
Theresa, on Daphne, put it well in a blog post this morning – she has not swallowed the anchor, she is merely taking the time to prepare for the next voyage. I think I will borrow that one and take it to heart.
There. I know what I am doing. Getting ready for our next cruise!